Today passed really quickly.
The lessons were pretty boring, except for Amath surprisingly.

Anyway, the situation is kinda getting worse. I just felt like a mixture of confusion, anger, disappointment and sadness all at the same time. Many people tell me to just give up on it already and be happy. On Sunday, I told my self that instead of giving up, I would let go. But I tried being neutral and everything but things just got stupider. I just don't want my clique to fall apart. I really miss the days when we were one big family, 8 of us sitting round the table. Joy usually dines with Vanessa and company and yimei will Kasee and company. Even though it was usually all k-pop. Lol. allkpop. and stuff but it was still happy and all.
I kinda feel bad now cause if I just pretended that nothing was wrong then maybe the others wouldn't noticed it in the first place. Not that much anyways. I am not too sure about whats going on on xy's side but I don't really want to pry right now.
Then it came to me that this just might work. Maybe it would help for me to kinda, leave the clique? I think I might try that out for one day and see what happens, might help me understand what actually is the problem. The weirdest part is, I really have to idea what is going on.
And  I just really do want to solve it(ideally) or end it but things always seem to make this impossible. But if God brought me through sec 1, I suppose theres nothing He can't carry me through.
I'll think of something.

In any case, for now, I am just going to have dinner, play a few games to chill out and spend some time in quiet to prepare for tomorrow.