Back from carnival, aching and tired but it was fun. Boring at first but became more fun when you have more friends with you. The redemption stall was so -.- though, and the horse derby turned out to be a monkey derby.
Spent a lot this year *guilty*, but on very random things, guess I overestimated the amount of coupons I needed, shouldn't have taken the extra from mum. ://
Well, it turns out that between friend and xy, things are patched up, which makes me relieved. I would feel happy for that but at the same time, a sense of emptiness. I still don't know why she hates me so much. Worse still, I still don't know what I have done. Normally, I wouldn't miss a single cca outing but now I am considering whether or not to go ice skating on Monday. It really doesn't feel good having your best friend (or someone whom you see as your best friend) just start hating you.
I really don't know what I have done, and apparantly, the choice to find out doesn't lie with me. But I guess, if I don't remember meaning any harm and did not ever have any bad intentions there is not reason to feel bad? It is really very horrible to feel guilty over something you do not even know why. Yet I feel like I am being taken for granted.
But I guess, she is now relieved to have xy back. And I feel less worried now.
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