Another long day. Just slept after coming home and washing up, :P
We had Emath in the library today because Mrs Chan hurt her knee. Poor Mrs Chan :( I felt so sad for her when I heard someone say "Mrs Chan is coming!" and I hear the tapping of the crutch.

On the happier side, xy gave me a music lanyard, since she knew I was looking for one but all those we saw at ps yesterday were really ugly. :P

Sigh, the situation has evolved to become something I can no longer describe. Most of the time, when I look meet any of them, I get a wry smile instead of the usually happy smile. I think. I really really hope to see everyone be happy again. I was kinda stupid to have mentioned my proposed solution to it. I think it upset xy a little so I apologized, to my relief, she just waved off the apology and told me not to think about such things anymore.

Anyway, I feel really grateful towards the friends who are not involved but are giving us emotional support and strength.
For a special mention, I thank God for ac, who has been giving me encouragements and so on be it through her own words or thru bible verses and also mx, cl, ef and jl for being such cheerful people who really  subconsciously or maybe consciously cheer me up :) and sk and tk for being so nice and sensitive although they are younger. ym her comfort and encouragement.

Some people ask me why I am still being affected and ever tried so hard to fix things. I would have to say is also because I treasure the times we had together and appreciate the things that she did. But I really do not know what is going on now and as of now, it seems kinda un-salvageable. Like I always say, it has to be mutual.  As of now, I just don't want to be misunderstood. I don't want anyone to take sides.

Anyway, I realise that sometimes, the toughest situations bring out the best in people, show us the good things we've never seen in others and opens our insight to the world.

Still, I'm excited for Friday's sleepover. :)) I hope hugging bear can make it. Honestly, I do miss spending time with her. sigh, the good old days :) I'm pretty excited for the carnival too, in fact, really excited. Can't wait for friday.

Oh! and I just learnt to pluck/strum safe and sound of hunger games on the guitar. ;)