Good morning, its easter Sunday. Hallelujah :)

I'll update about yesterday first. Well, yesterday was mostly spent at CIP for WRT. Its a new experience and I'll have to say its quite awesome. The people there are all really friendly. BUT. I just had to do stupid things again. I had no idea, how it happened but when I was sorta jogging towards my bag, I just tripped and fell. Over nothing. Might be my shoe though. Yeowch. It actually hurt quite a lot but its gone today. The worse thing to do is to fall in front of guys T.T cause girls are supposed to be graceful and stuff. sigh. hehz
Saturday would have been better if I wasn't so troubled by that thing. I can't even tell if I was more angry or hurt. I was so confused I wasn't thinking anymore. People were smsing me telling me a lot of different things. Some were pretty harsh but at least that was out of goodwill. I was conflicted by what I heard and seen. I had absolutely no idea what to do. I even smsed Vanessa to ask if anything happens, I could have a place in their clique. But jn said they wouldn't let me "out" so easily. Some tells me to give up, some tells me to grit my teeth and hang on. Now what? Anyway, CG helped me feel a little better yesterday. Somehow it always does.

I guess I'll also feel kinda bad if I told vanessa that I need to join them and eventually stay where I am. And I am really grateful for her sms. I think I'll join them on some days anyway, like once or twice a week.

I'm not quite sure how I am going to face tomorrow when everybody is gonna come and clear out stuff and I have a feeling its not going to be a gentle one. I am not sure also, how this will be solved eventually. But I do hope it is soon. I just hope everyone will be happy again. And I hope to find the bounce in my feet again. Without falling over ;)

Blessed Easter <3