Today's geography test was quite bad, but not too bad. I barely finished xP But it could have been worse. Not something to mope about.
I'm still in quite a confused/disappointed/sad mood cause now that I know her side of the story, I kinda feel a little bad. But still, I didn't intentionally one to cause this. I did it under good intentions. The accusation, to this point, I would think, is still rather invalid. There wasn't a need to come to this extend.
This is something I have been starting to ponder about since shortly before FLL. Life is simple, why make it so complicated? Just live each day to the fullest and be happy. Its kinda ironic now that I say this since I'm not exactly very happy right now.
But maybe whatever's happening now is a blessing in disguise? meant to help me see things in a bigger picture and to help me understand others better..
When a friend called and confided, I gave advice, encouragements but I may not be able to emphathise completely? She said I was strong and could handle much bad stuff. I prayed and said to God that I hoped so much for her to be OK, to the point that I was willing to take the burden for her. Because I thought I would have been able to manage it.
I treat my close friends like siblings. Because they are almost playing the role of siblings outside home.
But now I really understand how it feels to have the things that you believe in crashed and hopes fade away and everything doesn't seem to work out and you have just no you feel comfortable to turn to. (except God maybe)
But through this I really do get a bigger picture. Sometimes things may seem like they have been shattered but there will always be good family, friends etc. And God is always there.
And I think I've decided. I will try and solve this and leave the rest to God. As long as I do not do anything against my own conscience, things...probably will work out. After all, friendship is important and if it is a mutual and true friendship.,It will stay that way..
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