Time really passes quickly! I am already back from Adelaide. It was a wonderful and restful trip.
Things weren't how I imagined them. It was better :) I shall post a separate post about my trip.

Its almost the last week of the holidays yet I haven't completed my homework T.T Too busy with many many stuffs.
YM camp H2O was really enjoyable and it was really a great experience working with the camp comm. Thank God for giving me this chance to serve him through the camp :)

However, I do feel slightly burdened by a certain thought.
 I think I have been spending much time with older people, more understanding people that my view of things have really changed. I can't seem to be able to connect with people of my age group in school that well anymore.(not saying that I am matured or anything) I am definitely in NO position to judge but I really can't seem to understand why they do certain things.
Makes me really want not to go to school next year :P


For the 100th time, I think Infocomm deserves more respect. Simple as that. There is absolutely no reason why we are less superior then other CCAs. We are not a "dumping ground" for all the students who have failed the auditions for other CCAs. Neither are we a "nerd CCA". These are actual quotes that people have said about our CCA.  In actual fact, Infocomm takes in people who are passionate and love what they do. Without photographers, the only existing photos will be "ZI PAIed" photos. Disney and Pixar animators had to start small. And robotics, no bias here. But 6 consecutive years of championship is nothing to cough/sneeze at.
Anyway, the competition we join, FLL, requires the dicipline , alertness and coordination, as well as teamwork of sportspeople, fluency and passion of speech and delivery.
Robotics is a seriously underrated CCA.

Secondly, there are people who do things that are just wrong and disrespectful to themselves/their school and its just akoejkfo!!! Its not cool, its wrong and strange :/

Homework and study is not helping with Os coming next year. :P

However hard next year may seem, God will bring us through. Jia yous sec 4s of 2012!

3 more days to Adelaide!!

The trip is so close yet it seems so far but days are zooming past for me! That maybe doesn't make sense but oh well.
CCA has been keeping me mightly busy, taking up 3/4 of my day. I really need more self control to do my homework instead of crafting when I get home. But usually when I get back, I feel so tired and lazy that that is hardly possible.

Anyway, this week has been quite a turbulent week. Won't go into details now since I'll be heading for school soon. CCA starts only in an hour's time but I wanna get there early to settle my stuff and have some time left over to clean up the store room. Its driving me mad. (and its me I'm talking about here so thats saying somethingXD )

Back to the point, honestly, I don't think I am really as happy as I look in school sometimes. I try to be though. But when you try to be happy when you aren't completely and you overdo it, it tends to come out looking wierd and crazy.Like, suddenly skipping in the midst of walking hahahhaha. This sounds quite funny. No seriously, this isn't some emo post or rant, its just that sometimes there really are things that are bothering me that people in school either don't see or see just on the surface. So forgive the wierdness.

Back to happy things, I have won 2 clay contests on youtube and I'm awaiting my packages :)) And another squishy package which I ordered myself and intend to put it on sale. So many exciting things happening! Homework is such a party-pooper hahahahhaa XD.

Okay okay, its time to go if I want to have enough time to clean up.

CCA tomorrow

The weather is great now :) and its 13 days to the adelaide trip. :D:D

I am really glad that Chinese Os are over. Thank God.

This week is packed. Seriously packed. In fact, my holiday is packed. Theres CCA tomorrow but most of the sec threes are not there. But we're getting the play field tomorrow ! So exciting! But I doubt Laoshi will let us build the playfield since we  are not in "our" room. Rawr, don't really like being in the library for long hours :( So little freedom. And you can't adjust the aircon.
Wednesday to Friday will be my pushcart course. I am quite excited but also a bit apprehensive since I am the only sec 3 there T.T 

First week of extended cirriculum is over! It was long and hard but its over! Thank God! Yesterday and Thursday were particulary hard because not only were the days long but I had to bear with my runny nose. It started on Thursday and then on Friday I was debating to myself on whether or not to go to school cause I started to get a headache along with the runny nose. After a long time, I packed 5 packets of tissue, a large bottle of vapourrub, strepsil and my jacket and went to school anyway. In the end, I had to get 2 more packs of tissue. By the last lesson, I felt like just falling asleep on the table :P Then towards the night I think I must have gotten a slight fever or something cause my head and body felt warm but my legs felt cold. So I just slept real early. Much better this morning but i think my voice still sounds a bit funny.

Extended Cirriculum

So..while everyone else is on holiday, probably sleeping at this time now, I'm going to school soon. For extra lessons. Each 1h30min long. And school ends later than usual. I guess it helps in the long run, and I really appreciate the teachers efforts to come back to conduct lessons but I think they've put too much in one day. We have O level Chinese next week. I can't really speak for the other students but personally, adding CCA, I am just too exhausted, mentally and physically to do any studying..

I've been more worried about FLL than I should. I just want it so much more, after last year. I really want to experience it. Winning really isn't everything but I can't deny it isn't important XD In any case, FLL is really fun and I'm sure this year will be too. :)

God's perfect Plans

All that ranting aside, we learnt in Sunday school today that all things happened for a reason, that it is all scripted out perfectly by God, just that we can't see the script, or how perfect and well planned the script is. That even when we go through bad things, they happen for a reason. Although I did not share today, I had too many experiences that truly shows this. The main ones being

1) Gym. I had completely no idea how I got assigned into gym but I felt like I had to try it out. Though it was pretty much 1 year and 2 months of physical (i'm not a sports person), mental and emotional torture (hmm..maybe thats a little exaggerated but oh well), it taught me perserverance, tolerance, patients, reaching my limits and people-people relations.?? Also, since I missed the infocomm auditions when i went for dance, I would not have been in such a great CCA now if not for gym. Not saying gym isn't great, I suppose it has its plus points.

2) FLL 2010 It was really a struggle for me, but through this, I learnt to be a better leader and friend and that theres so much more to just winning. A little surprise then came to me in July...

So yep, no matter how bad things seem, God is always there to support you and you can be sure He has already planned things out perfectly. :)

"...And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
Romans 8:28

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11

Its raining really heavily now..Hope it becomes slighly less heavy so that I can go out without getting drenched. :P Its special CG today. I think I'm slacking big time now. Ms Lau says its time to work hard again. I think she's leaving next year. I would say she is the most special teacher I've had so far. So strict, so fierce and well, frank, but I still really like her as my teacher. I really hope I left a good impression of myself on her?

I'm gonna to a Testimony tomorrow at YM service. I'm really really scared. No wait, nervous is a better word? But I guess if God had somehow allowed me to go on stage in front of the whole level to deliver a really short speech as a "delegate of Turkey", I should be able to do this. :)

Business has been good :) Many orders for the whipped cream ring, which I am wearing now :)
K, I shall go now, want to buy a drink before going to CG.

Results are back

So, since last thursday, we got back our results..I would say my results are satisfactory..Passed E-math, though not very well, 78 for Bio, 69 for Chem (not happy), 68 for Combined (really really not happy),
And...I PASSED A MATH. FOR THE FIRST TIME. Thank God! :))) All things are possible with God!

We  had our iMUN briefing today. I am a "delegate" of Turkey :)
Yeps.

SO..nothing really much other than that really..

Marking day

Woke up late today (9am) So shuang. :) Felt a little better this morning and decided not to ponder over things that I talked about in the previous post.
So, after breakfast, which was toast and poached egg, I read my novel again, have not read for leisure in a long long time, say, about a year??? I am sure school encourages book reading right...

Then, after finishing the book, I had the sudden urge to bake. After getting the green light from mum, I went to the library to get a recipie  book. In the end, spent more than an hour there deciding what I wanted to do.

Then finally, went to Phoon Huat to get my ingredients. Met Xin Hui there :)

The cupcakes were successful and good and the decorating part was really fun, but tiring. Mmm..

Sad, no CCA tomorrow

So..exams ended. We (Xinying, Yuting and Renee and me) went to Rosemary's house to chill out. After a while, we went to collect the popin cooking from CandyPlay Singapore. Then, being too excited, I wanted to begin right away. So we went ahead and did the gummyland set before dinner. It was really awesome fun but really harder than it looks to make the gummies. It tasted pleasant as well but definitely, the taste does not match up to ready made gummies. The dinner was scrumptious, prepared by Rosemary's mum, who was very generous, friendly and hospitable. I did not stay over cause of enrichment the next day. :((

But the enrichment (social and fine dining etiquette) was more interesting than I had expected, the trainers were fun and the content was good. It was an enriching experience, especially the "hands-on" part. Yep, the five course meal tasted quite good too! The personal effectiveness course was also more fun than I had expected it to be. Better than the previous years', thats for sure.

That aside, time for ranting...I sometimes don't think I can do this much longer. I really don't like to be the one trying to partch things together and then no one see the effort much less appreciates it and then just gahh..can't explain this. Nevermind I just leave that for now.

AND why can't they understand that this is difficult for me? Or maybe, at the least, offer some assurance. I feel so insecure and unsure now. Plus, being slammed in the face by yet another disappointment today isn't helping very much. But I don't think I will be giving up.

Yeap. Artsie Melancholic indeed.

I guess all that I can do now is keep praying. The Lord understands fully :')

Almost done!

Yeah! I can relax a little over the weekend cause its EL paper 3 on Monday :) Thank God!
I am quite disappointed with how I did for amath, but I hope I will miraculously pass!
Gonna make clay miniatures tonight! And build my mini pet shop :)))

This song really brought me through myEOYs :)
I believe it is an older hymn, compared to the ones I have been posting. But its really meaningful :)

4 down, many more to go :P

Finished my SS and Chem papers yesterday :) SS was supposed to go well but I had  a totally wrong interpretation of the source so thats 5 marks gone T.T Chem was quite bad too, the calculations really got me :( But I tried my best I guess.
Anyway, yesterday was one of the most exciting days I've had in a long time. I feel kinda guilty for spending the entire day trying to get votes for my logo thingy. And my friends too :P I really thank God for such awesome awesome friends and family. In the end, at 2359, it was head to head until a few more votes poured in for mine, still waiting for the votes.
I  think all the entries are awesome but there were some mean commentors and all but I was really touched by all my friends to care about that mean commentor.
Anyway, the adreneline rush was awesome! It was a 62 margin at 10pm but by 12 it was head to head/won by a 2-vote margin :O
All things are really possible :)

Okok  I shall go study now :)

This week end seems to be passing really fast. This week has been ok I guess. Very much studying but I do take time to slack heheh.
A miracle happened. I passes overall Amath for term 3. Its really thanks to my pop quiz and PT, which I have to thank my group members for ^^ I really hope that at the End of EOYs, I can be happily telling my tuition teacher than I improved by another grade, or even two or more.
Oral was not as good as I had expected, not sure if I did well but I felt that I could have expanded my points better :P But I did something really embarrassing, Somehow, I could not get out of the exam hall. All the doors seemed to be stuck. And in attempt to open a door, I knocked over a dustbin ;_____; hahaha. At it totally echoed through the exam hall. :P

English Paper one was also not a good I expected it to be..but I guess whats over is over :P I shall go study for SS now :]

Its another monday and the official start of the "exam season".For once, I'm not getting the Monday blues :)  Gonna have english oral today. I hope I'll do okay ;)
I'm not just nervous about exams but also about the candyplay logo design comp.. This sounds so wierd but I'd really like the prizes quite badly. XD Hope that the votes will keep coming in.
Revision is going fine. Studied with rosemary on Saturday. And all my math mistakes and problems surfaced..but the paper wasn't as hard as I had expected. Hope it stays that way. Then I will just have to keep practicing and stop myself from being careless. :P

Oh well, gonna send in another entry for the logo competition. I need to get more likes for my first entry T.T

Anyway, one of the worship songs we had during YM yesterday was Hallelujah to my King. The lyrics of this song constantly reminds me of the power of the Lord and that we can put all our trust into him :)

Oh what peace the Spirit of Jesus brings
through the trials He will carry me

My favourite-timetable-day :D

The entire school timetable today was made up of humance and languages. :)) I love humance :D I got back my lit results and I'm happy. Its really really a miracle that I got 20/25 although I really did not understand the first passage! Thank God :) The TFA one was not too bad but still not up to my usual lit text essay standard. I'm quite disappointed with my chinese results though. I really could have done better.

Anyway, I really shouldn't be slacking now. I've started serious revision but I'm still too flustered and worried about math. Honestly, I'm more worried of emath. :( I have not let my teacher check my work for some time now. I'm afraid that she will think I'm still not practicing enough. Because I don't think I am. I really hate tedious calculation so I keep dragging practice. No wonder I fail :(( I need more practice! But doing every single question is really a challenge :P A math, I'm slightly more confident but I really need more practice for trig.

I really don't like how 3/4 of my post these days are about studies :/ So, studies aside, we learnt how to manage a sprain during PE today. Hehe. First time I actually bandaged someone's foot :P I hope I don't have to again tho. That will mean that something happened O.o  

CCA is halted for now. So officially, school is all about studying now :O           

I really really can't wait to go to adelaide now :) We're most likely gonna stay for 2 days in a seaside cottage :D First experience staying in a bungalow :D Its near the sea! I'm really excited to get away from the bustling city to just go to the quiet nature and enjoy the well, quietness :) I'm also going to Rundel mall's Darrel Lea to get some chocolates and sweet stuff for the people back in Singapore.

Another day has passed really quickly. I was really really tired in school today and I was trying SUPER HARD not to fall asleep. I didn't sleep that late last night but I had quite a rough night, waking up and then going back to sleep again :/ Have not been tired to eye-closing level since the last FLL :P

Ah, sad, theres no CCA tomorrow. But on the bright side, that means more time for mugging! I really don't mind studying for all the subjects. Except my worst subject..Emath and Chem and maybe Amath. But I don't mind amath actually. Thats really annoying myself because I should NOT in any way be trying to avoid the subjects I don't do well at. I won't improve that way.

I think I like tomorow's timetable :D Much humance subjects. yea..and PE :)))
Yeap.

" God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. " Psalm 46:1

Today was a good day :) I like the timetable today. I got back my SS test. Thank God. It was better than I expected! I got 11/12 :) for SS :D However, I got back my amath yesterday. I worked rather hard for this test and I was quite sure I would pass but I didn't :((( I disappointed my tuition teacher and myself :((
But I will stop worrying and start continuing to practice for EOYs.

I have been staying in school to study till 5 from yesterday. In the library. It keeps me from being distracted and makes sure I study at least a certain amount of hours a day :P

On the whole, I am feeling slightly better than I did yesterday. But I'm still quite nervous for tuition tomorrow T.T

" can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And I fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer"

I'm exhausted yet theres so much on my mind that I can hardly go to sleep. The childrens' programme went well I guess. But it was so chaotic and I feel practically useless. I like children, but looks like I really cannot handle them. :( I think they don't like me :( But I guess they are young and still do not understand that I take the penknife away from them and stoppingls from going into the gents for a reason. Heh. But this makes me kinda worried..what if Aren doesn't like me anymore? :(( But I still love you Aryee and Aren :')

Then, watching the kids makes me think..
I have one thing I really have to admit. I'm proud to say this even if I'm already 15 and people may think its a kiddish and uncool thing to do. I have a sister that almost always understands, who is the most willing to listen to my stupid and annoying rants(apart from God maybe) and I love my sister :)

Its the last weekday of the school holidays...I think I'm getting the back to school blues..I pretty much done with homework except for that handful of math questions I just can't figure out. And maybe the extra homework for emath...Didn't really feel like doing math today..I hope I will finish it by tomorrow morning.O.o Otherwise, I'm asking for trouble on monday :P

Curiosity really kills the cat. I tried to pull the vena cava out of my 3D heart model while studing bio and it broke T.T  So I tried to glue it back on with super glue :P

I'm kinda excited for helping out at the mid-autumn festival children's programme at church tomorrow :)))
Ok.uh. I'm off to watch the 10.pm show hahahhaha. k bye.

Finally, break time, been doing math for a hour slightly more. Feel slightly calmer now. But still slightly worried over E-math. No matter how I solve the question, its still wrong! Thats why math makes me frustrated sometimes. :P
I managed to cram some bio last evening and revised some geog in the afternoon.
Though I am feeling calmer, I still don't want to go back to school T.T I don't even want to see the results...I guess I actually don't mind the EOYs cause they are probably (hopefully) going to pull up my overall marks. Except for E-math. I am extremely unprepared! Suddenly, I feel that E-math is so much heavier than A-math.

That aside, I seriously can't wait for the Adelaide trip! Kinda sad that we are going during summer rather than winter but I'm happy :D

Flustered!!!

I am officially extremely flustered now. Everyone seems be mugging already and I'm still struggling with math homework!?! I really hate being bad at math :( And I don't think I'm any much better at science these days. I guess bio is ok as long as I study but arghh..there had to be math incorporated into chem now -.- .

I am really so flustered I can't even do clay properly anymore. I am considering whether it was that good an idea for a youtube channel. Its really hard maintaining it sometimes but its still rewarding :) I'm a little worried that the account will be dead for month as I prepare for my exams but thats not supposed to be important..

I think I'm really fried if I don't start focusing. I think math is really that giant boulder that gets in the way of everything. It takes up 3/4 of my time having to do much more practices that everyone else, having to see the teacher in the morning. I guess its good in the long run but I think its affecting my other subjects.

It really seems like an impossible feat for me to pull up my socks now and run the last lap of this year in a sprint and improve by leaps and bounds. But I guess, as long as I study hard, pray hard, miracles can still happen...

Oh no..I really don't want to go back to school this time.T.T
There are results, which I'm happy not knowing. I also left out a piece of homework! Gar..there isn't time for homework anymore, I need to study for my weaker subjects..Worst of all, how am I gonna face Ms Song? Ohno Ohno, I don't want to go to bio remedial. I hope she doesn't come talk to me, and I hope she didn't think that I got complacent because I really didn't. But it was still true that I could have started studying earlier. :(( Must get A1 for bio at the end of the year!

I've been following my timetable ok, better than I expected but it still seems like there is a short of time. I really hate this nervous feeling everytime I remember I still have more homework and then I have to study and theres no more time for fun stuff like clay and photography and guitar now. 

Its the holidays..

Finally, its term break again. Yea. I think term break is a more suitable term than holidays in this case. Exams start in a few weeks after we get back to school. One weeks not very much but at least better than nothing. I made myself a timetable and  I hope to continue following it :P

Nothing much to look foward to for now but I kinda want to visit daiso..hm...Maybe I'll go later after finishing some homework.

Gar..feel so restless today..

Who am I?

Suddenly got inspired my a show to do a self introduction. Sorta..feels kinda random and its gonna sound melodramatic..but fun all the same :)

I'm Shannon, and I turned 15 this August 14th.I'm a Christian -- Methodist, more specifically. I'm in Secondary three in Singapore. I'm pretty much the average Singaporean living in an Average HDB flat. But I'm happy with that. I love animals and nature, especially dogs, cats and hamsters and penguins..hmm. I have an EXTREME obsession with miniatures and scale models, especially of food or kitchenware. I make miniatures and own a teeny business called mad miniatures.  That leads me to my next point. I am an aspiring chef. Thats a big dream for someone in Singapore. I also want to have my own band one day, just as a hobby. But I think I already have too many hobbies. My co-curricular activity is robotics. I used to be in Gymnastics but thats another story. I spent quite a lot of time alone but I don't feel that lonely. I usually settle my own lunch and sometimes dinner. Though I usually don't eat lunch on weekdays...
I used to do very well in school (academic wise but its getting harder these days)
I would admit I think alot about a lot of things and sometimes say really stupid things. But doesn't everybody at some point of time? I'm not a very good speaker. So I often say wrong things, people sometimes find it hard to understand me :P Its really so much easier to type.

One of my greatest personal values is that no one should be left out, stereotyped or discriminated. I can't tell if I'm saying that if I feel that I'm left out sometimes. This brings me back to gymnastics. I got into gymnastics by chance and by impulse in secondary one. It was hard and after one year I decided that the best thing to do is to join another CCA. By God's grace, I got to be part of a warm and awesome CCA -- robotics. Its strange how our extreme differences in personality and background does not set us apart. I'm still learning although I've been in the CCA for more than a year. I would see myself as a junior though I am now one of the seniors in the CCA.
Then again, infocomm leads me back to the value to stereotype. I won't say I completely do not stereotype but I'm working on it. Infocomm has never been seen as a prestigeous CCA or a respectable one in school. Although I think it is. When I first joined, many people not in infocomm said some things that are not exactly very flattering towards infocomm and the people in there. But I'm proud to say I AM AN INFOCOMM ROBOTICS MEMBER AND I THINK WERE AWESOME.

That aside, I'll go back to the part about the band. I play the guitar and the electone. I'm currently learning how to operated the sound system to serve the Lord more. I want to learn to play the keyboards and the drums one day but as I've said, I want to do too many things. I secretly want to perform on stage with a guitar one day but I didn't tell anyone that. until this post. I still kinda doubt my voice but I think I'm at least a safe distance away from being tone deaf :)


Then, back to the part about being a Christian. I just got to know the Lord two years back. The church camp I attended back in P2 wasn't enough to let me really know him. I'm not baptised yet but I'm planning to do so next year.
I can remember that one time in service, the pastor asked us, If we were stripped of our identity (If I deleted 3/4 of this post) Who are we?

Who am I? That the Lord of all the earth, would care to know my name, care to feel my hurt? 

I really don't like starting my posts with "Today,,," but I don't seem to have any better starters. Oh well. Today was farewell for Sarah. I don't really know her but I know shes really nice :) THe only times I saw her was at last years FLL and during the CNY barbeque/tepanyaki. But I hope she does well and have fun in UK :)
Yesterday was a rather depressing day...I got back my bio test...don't even want to talk about it. D:
But still, I guess today soothed things a little.

"You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same"

I survived today!

Today was such a mad rush :P Here there, we're practically everywhere, trying to get homework ready and all. We also had the teachers day celebration during assembly. Quite cool but I thought we should be performing for the teachers and not the other way round? oh well it was great :) Resonance did it again :')
I really do wish I could have my own band one day. With the instruments and all. But I should stop thinking at this point :P  heh. We also had class party today :)) Strangely, there was a lack of chips! I expected everyone to bring chips but I guess everybody else thought the same. The awfully chocolate cake was awesome :) And Ms Lee's cupcake too! Yum yum.
And I think Ms Lau liked the shirt! I've never seen her smile so widely before :)

Tomorrow is the Amath block test. The big day. Months of tution all boils down to this day. haha. PLEASEEE let me be let careless and let me PASS! (IF POSSIBLE, WITH FLYING COLOURS) hehe.

OK, should go to prepare the teachers day gifts and study now :)

School tomorrow...
After a seemingly short break, school is gonna start again tomorrow. 3 days isn't that much really. I realised I've left a load of stuff to do at the last minute again :(

On the bright side, MUM BOOKED THE AIR TICKETS TO ADELAIDE!!!!!!!!!! Finally, after 5 years... But we're not spending a day at Syndey anymore. Instead, we are transiting at Perth during the return trip. Still its gonna be an awesome trip! Gonna buy lotsa sweet treats and chocolates back for the FLL peeps if we're really visiting Melbas. WHOOTS :))

Anyway, had a really awesome and scruptious lunch today, there was assam fish head, oatmeal squid, vegetables, mushroom in oyster sauce :)) Mmm..

I should probably go back to preparing for tomorrows school.

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
² My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
Psalm 121 : 1-2

OHHH..no words can convey my excitement for my trip to Australia :D We may visit melbas again and I'll be sure to bring back lots of goodies for the FLL peeps and all those helping out, and we'll visit kangaroo island, glenelg, eat fish and chips, go to wild life parks, play with aren and camp out in Aryees backyard! And I just can't wait to see aryee and family again :DD The flight is not booked yet tho heh. Should be doing so over the next few days!
And we are still considering if we are gonna stop over at sydney for 1 day :) If the flights permit, so we don't have to pay for accomodations :P

Cold day.

Its rare that its cold in Singapore. But I love it :)) Wish it would stay like this forever.

Anyway, I watched HOP on miotv today. I'm suddenly inspired to learn drums. Maybe after Os. Then, I would also want to set up a band, just for fun. I'll have a drummer, a guitarist, a lead vocalist and maybe someone who just helps out with many things :) Still, its all on studies for now.

Its almost the EOYs and as I've said, its probably wiser to concentrate on studies for now. But I don't deny that theres something greatly bothering me. I don't want to bother anyone else with this worry but its kinda important. To me at least. Hm...what do I do? I'm not if this is acting on the good of all but..uhh..dilemma again. I really don't want to bring it up but I'm going to regret it.. this is soooo hard...honestly, when I am  committed to something. I give it 101%. Or at least I try to. and..its so hard even to type! How to put it into words and tell someone..I'm gonna say the wrong things again. This feels wierd, I've never ranted to a blog before. haha.
But stilllllllll......I need to be reassured! I'm not going to put in all my effort and. Isn't it obvious what she wants? Won't it be so much easier..both sides would be happy. But we never know. Its especially important this year..it need to be right.  I'm never been the authoritative kind. I really don't think this is going to work. I reassure others but I can't reassure myself. I just let it go the last time, without protest. Or maybe just a little. It went fine..but I am I seeking more than just fine?
But I'm not in the position to judge. K I'm done. I think I'll just wait and see what happens. I'll just hand it over to the Lord. I really hope I can use this quote to remind myself to leave things to stop worrying. :P

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:34

Short Holiday(study break)

Due to presidential elections and the Hari Raya Break, we will be having a 5-day holiday from school(sadly,including weekend) I really do hope I can use it wisely :P
Anyway, I got a real big shock when I woke up today. I heard some noise from outside the room so I thought it was still early and jie was still at home. So I slept on. After a while, I checked my phone -- 10.41 am. I practically jumped out from bed and ran outside. mama was like "eh你还在家？哈哈" :D

Nothing much today, just went out for a short while to get stationary and assesment book. And bought lunch -- special chili crab subway meal. Makes me feel like such a spendthrift :/

My phone sure brought me a lot of surprises today. When I checked it just before going out, it said "Ask mama if she wants to go to Aryees place from 26/11 to 3/12. I stoned for a while and nearly burst with happiness inside. But I cannot get happy too early, it is still not confirmed but oh well :))) ADELAIDE <3  We are still not sure if we are going to transit though..

I think I need to get to writing my essay now..probably nothing much is going to happen over the next few days but I never know. Surprises may still happen. Fingers crossed :)



 

"Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me,for you are my God and my Saviour , and my hope is in you all day long."
Psalm 25:4-5

Today was quite an awesome day :) Mostly humance lessons. And for a-math, I could do the questions my teacher set us! Thats an achievement already. hehe. I well still need to keep practicing though, math is really one big obstacle I must overcome.

From the title, its cca day today :D I really love my CCA :') I guess its a complete contrast from how things were in secondary one. This is probably the only thing in sec 3 that is better than in Secondary one. :P But I believe I went through gym for a reason. Like I mentioned in the post yesterday, some blessings are in disguise and this is one of them. As for robotics, it is the blessing that came a little bit later :)

During CCA today, I talked to Mingxuan, Carmen and  Sujin about my dream career. Hehe. I really should concentrate on EOYs and then O levels now till end of next year but I really can't help thinking about it :P I would really like to go to a University in Australia to pursue the area of culinary arts...But oh well, for now, its back to math, science and humanities.


  "For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."
Jeremiah 29:11

Terracotta warriors and mundane school life.

Just came back from the Ancient civilisations museum. It was part of our "Mother tongue fortnight" programme to view the terracotta warriors exhibition. IT was cool but it would have been better if we did not have that little time.I kinda liked the atmosphere of the museum. All dark and grand at the same time. Reminds me of night at the museum movie :))
I think I was like a lost sheep most of the time. There were just too many people. I feel kinda bad for the tourists :S Then I saw a mother trying to explain to a 4-5 year old kid about the unification of China, I couldn't really tell if the kid was looking awed or confused . heh :)

School was honestly quite boring today. Nothing much really happened. Lots of food sales going on in the canteen though, by 1SE, debate, PSG etc. Bought some fruit salad from debate and tried fresh blueberries for the first time :P Also got to try some of their apricot muffins, Which were really quite good :D
We also got our EOY exam timetable today. How depressing. But at least its easier to draw out and conduct the study plans with a proper timetable.

Despite it being a really ordinary,mundane day, I realised something big today --  how we often forget to count our blessings.I can list 1001 instances which I forget to count my blessings.  If  are having lots of good things, we are blessed with them. IF we don't have some things, its probably not because of bad luck. Its just that the blessings come later, or maybe they have come in another form, another way.

                                         "...We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
                                                And all the while, You hear each spoken need
                                             Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things..."

Monday..

So today I had Chem SPA on the first lesson.It was okay I guess but I was rather clumsy. Hope the examiners didn't see that :P I got back my my SS block test. I didn't do as well as I expected or wanted.
:((  Humance is my strong point...And after recess we got back our E-math paper. Totally felt like crying T.T :((( It was worse than I thought. As if the questions I did not know how to do was not bad enough, the careless mistakes and presentation mistakes made it far worse. I feel so sorry towards my parents, myself and my math teacher :(  Although she is fierce and scary and I'm kinda scared of her, I still like her as my teacher. :((
Looks like I have to put aside all my distractions now. No more clay after my last tutorial this weekend :( Youtube will have to wait as well. TIme to get studying.
But today was really tiring although it was only the first day of the week. But oh well I survived. I think I be doing math late late into the night from tonight on..
But still, this song never fails to comfort. :')

"For the LORD is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations."
Psalm 100:4-5

Past week + yesterday :))

The week that just passed was heath week. Largely, it was a good week. Except maybe for the bio test and the Emath test :P But it was really an amazing week. Last Sunday was my 15th Birthday. I hope I grew inside and not just in terms of age. Rosemary planned a day at Playnation for my birthday. I really appreciate that, even though the others could not make it, it was still a fun day. The surprise came when Carmen came. Not that I was surprised that someone else was coming, I already kind suspected it..somehow. Haha. :) But still its really nice of Carmen to come :) Playnation is basically a cafe where you pay for a package and you play 4 hours of board games or console games with a free flow of drinks. Rosemary bought us nacho cheese fries and calamari rings too :))

On wednesday, we had the interclass health week activity. I was in the soccor team which turned out to really be a futsal team. :P But it was awesome fun! 3GR managed to get third!! I think. Yep! But I think we really were awesome heh. Its kinda my first time playing soccer (or a soccer like game) as far as I remember, unless you count last year's inter-cca water soccer. Which was fun too.

And on Friday afternoon, we had our inter-cca captains ball. Infocomm played  against the other clubs and societies though not all.   We won every single game we played though :) Debate won the first one but for some reason it wasnt considered :/   But it was a close fight. All the other CCAs played awesome too! :) Theres no word to describe the final match. EPIC. maybe :D heeh. All the other ccas were watching and OHH it was really  awesome fun :)) The chess players were really good sports too! They played really really well too! :) A friendly game is always the best :) Good game everyone!

And on Saturday afternoon, I went to CG at church. We played a game which was quite amusing and then did sharing. I realise I'm a leeetle more open in sharing now..in a way.

And after that, I met Yuting at TP MRT station and we went to ION orchard Daiso. Did not get what I was looking for :(( But I got a display shelf for my rements and some boxes to organise my craft stuffs and keep them away by tomorrow so I will not be distracted from my studies ;P Then, I stated to take a real long time and we were late by 7 minutes. But when we got to Orchard Cini, there was no one there  XP. hehe. Finally, Rosemary, Xinying came, followed by Jodie. Then, we walked in the rain and rushed into raindrops cafe. How ironic :D However, because we did not have a reservation and it was raining outside, we had to look for someplace else to eat. And then Carmen and jiun ning came :)) We walked about Orchard Cini for a white and everywhere was packed. So we everntually settled down at A.venue cafe. It was a cosy cafe with good food. I guess it was resonably priced for a posh cafe. After we ate, a surprise came. The friendly staff sang happy birthday and brought in an oreo cheesecake, which I think Rosemary bought :) Then even made us a little snowman out of ice cream. :))

Yep. So yesterday was a really awesome day. And on the whole, I was a good week. Thank God for giving me such awesome friends and for bringing me through the week -- exciting yet nevertheless slightly tiring :)

Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good. His love endures forever.
 Psalm 136:1-3

Blogging again..

As from the title, I'm blogging again, after stopping for more than a year. I know the end year exams are coming and this probably seems like a waste of time but I think it helps me keep a clear mind and kinda place everything down. But this time I guess it will be different. I'm actually, in a way, inspired by a friend to do this but it will not be exactly the same as hers. Its probably hard to understand what I'm saying now..but thats not that important.

I think in this year, I've really started to see God more and more in my life. Even in the smallest things. I remember how my Aunt May gave me a book before she left for Adelaide called "God is in the Small Stuff for Kids". Its still meaningful when I read it now, even if it is a children's book.

For a start, today's Sunday school, we had a new teacher. She's really nice and patient :)) We'll be learning about the book of Romans this term, based on the text called "How to be a Christian without being religeous", I think I might want to look for the book and purchase it. I was understudy for soundwoman today :) I'm quite glad I can serve in another way during service in future. Hopefully I will successfully learn the skill though. :P

There's not that much homework this weekend. Or maybe I just forgot..hmm..But I'll probably be tidying up my workspace and room to prepare the place to be "conducive" for studying. My results have not been too good and its high time to get studying. I'm really worried for my E-math results especially. I will also have to revise for 'O' level chemistry SPA tomorrow. Can't believe its the actually thing already.

So thats probably it for today. But I think I'll talk about yesterday or in fact the past week then. A long time away from blogging make me want to blog more. Its such a long post so I think I'll make it a separate post :P