Flustered!!!

I am officially extremely flustered now. Everyone seems be mugging already and I'm still struggling with math homework!?! I really hate being bad at math :( And I don't think I'm any much better at science these days. I guess bio is ok as long as I study but arghh..there had to be math incorporated into chem now -.- .

I am really so flustered I can't even do clay properly anymore. I am considering whether it was that good an idea for a youtube channel. Its really hard maintaining it sometimes but its still rewarding :) I'm a little worried that the account will be dead for month as I prepare for my exams but thats not supposed to be important..

I think I'm really fried if I don't start focusing. I think math is really that giant boulder that gets in the way of everything. It takes up 3/4 of my time having to do much more practices that everyone else, having to see the teacher in the morning. I guess its good in the long run but I think its affecting my other subjects.

It really seems like an impossible feat for me to pull up my socks now and run the last lap of this year in a sprint and improve by leaps and bounds. But I guess, as long as I study hard, pray hard, miracles can still happen...