Cold day.

Its rare that its cold in Singapore. But I love it :)) Wish it would stay like this forever.

Anyway, I watched HOP on miotv today. I'm suddenly inspired to learn drums. Maybe after Os. Then, I would also want to set up a band, just for fun. I'll have a drummer, a guitarist, a lead vocalist and maybe someone who just helps out with many things :) Still, its all on studies for now.

Its almost the EOYs and as I've said, its probably wiser to concentrate on studies for now. But I don't deny that theres something greatly bothering me. I don't want to bother anyone else with this worry but its kinda important. To me at least. Hm...what do I do? I'm not if this is acting on the good of all but..uhh..dilemma again. I really don't want to bring it up but I'm going to regret it.. this is soooo hard...honestly, when I am  committed to something. I give it 101%. Or at least I try to. and..its so hard even to type! How to put it into words and tell someone..I'm gonna say the wrong things again. This feels wierd, I've never ranted to a blog before. haha.
But stilllllllll......I need to be reassured! I'm not going to put in all my effort and. Isn't it obvious what she wants? Won't it be so much easier..both sides would be happy. But we never know. Its especially important this year..it need to be right.  I'm never been the authoritative kind. I really don't think this is going to work. I reassure others but I can't reassure myself. I just let it go the last time, without protest. Or maybe just a little. It went fine..but I am I seeking more than just fine?
But I'm not in the position to judge. K I'm done. I think I'll just wait and see what happens. I'll just hand it over to the Lord. I really hope I can use this quote to remind myself to leave things to stop worrying. :P

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:34