So tired~ 

My eyes are kinda swollen. Can't really open them wide. I had a though night. 

I wished I could have skyped with jie. I waited the whole day for that. But I was just too upset and tired. Not with her :/ Jie would have been able to help I guess. Anyway, didn't want to go in front of the webcam looking like that --> ;____; 

It wasn't entirely because of mar's comments but probably all the pent up frustration. I just wish I didn't have to deal with all these while I'm trying to chiong for prelims and apply my DPA and stuff. My grades are crazy bad for someone whos gonna take olevels in a few months time and I just don't have the time or energy to care about irrational stuff. 

I'm glad I talked to my mentor yesterday tho. Made me feel a little better. And I guess I know what I have to do, though it won't be easy. Praying for higher patience level. And I guess it also shifted my POV a little and allow me to put away my anger and frustration for a bit and TRY to understand them. I still can't. But I'll TRY.