Its gonna be Sunday soon. I think I slacked off my saturday again T.T and prelims is next week. For some reason, I just can't seem to force myself to study on Saturdays. I need to MUG tomorrow. At the same time, I have to finish building my bakery and editing by this week cuz I don't wanna eat into my prelims.

This week was relatively alright.
Went for my DPA interview on Monday. Good thing aunt went with me. Otherwise I'll be a lost duck -.- as usual..Totally forgot how to walk the sheltered way thru engineering school to get to TCA. The interview surprisingly wasn't scary but I don't feel I have very much "ba wo" since the other applicants were all really good. And we are only 6 among so many. I really was that place very much tho. Still have that twinge of hope inside me. But like aryee said, if this is the right way to walk, God will path the way for me~

School was stressful, not only in terms of studies. But in many other ways too. There are some not so nice stuff that we settled but there is still some discomfort in me. I hope good friend is doing ok. I feel so disgustingly conflicted. Still trapped in unknown (and irrational??) guilt and confusion. Although I don't show it, it really feels disgusting. I feel like I'm being punished for something but I don't know what that something is. Despite my frustration, I still do care about her.

But at the same time, in this period of time, I've really seen the side of my friends that I've never seen before. Difficult times do bring out the best in people sometimes. Just to name a few, JoN, I think I never really knew her but my respect for her just grew even more. yt, her rationality in handling situations. Ni, for her sensitivity and encouraging-ness..xy for her effort to bring out the best in her friends and her resilience, mx for understanding and sensitivity, ym for just giving me a strange sense of safety and comfort, kw, for that little action that changed my week. There are so many other people, in church, at home that have been really awesome but I shall leave that for another time. God is really good, for letting me have all these people in my life~