I got 23/30 for emath test. Thats an AWW MANNN for most of the people in my class. But for me, its a miracle! I haven't gotten above 20/30 in a math test for roughly a year now. Thank God. I think I might pass overall for CA1 emath now :) I will get my A1 in prelims and O levels! 

Anyway, more unhappy stuff happened today. I think I should stop thinking and worrying more than I should but at the same time, I feel so downright torn apart. Every day, I have to feel conflicted but still I do not stop trying? Am I trying hard enough? Or am I trying too hard? It says somewhere that there are times to hold on and times to let go?

I hope this ends soon. I really do