4 down, many more to go :P

Finished my SS and Chem papers yesterday :) SS was supposed to go well but I had  a totally wrong interpretation of the source so thats 5 marks gone T.T Chem was quite bad too, the calculations really got me :( But I tried my best I guess.
Anyway, yesterday was one of the most exciting days I've had in a long time. I feel kinda guilty for spending the entire day trying to get votes for my logo thingy. And my friends too :P I really thank God for such awesome awesome friends and family. In the end, at 2359, it was head to head until a few more votes poured in for mine, still waiting for the votes.
I  think all the entries are awesome but there were some mean commentors and all but I was really touched by all my friends to care about that mean commentor.
Anyway, the adreneline rush was awesome! It was a 62 margin at 10pm but by 12 it was head to head/won by a 2-vote margin :O
All things are really possible :)

Okok  I shall go study now :)

This week end seems to be passing really fast. This week has been ok I guess. Very much studying but I do take time to slack heheh.
A miracle happened. I passes overall Amath for term 3. Its really thanks to my pop quiz and PT, which I have to thank my group members for ^^ I really hope that at the End of EOYs, I can be happily telling my tuition teacher than I improved by another grade, or even two or more.
Oral was not as good as I had expected, not sure if I did well but I felt that I could have expanded my points better :P But I did something really embarrassing, Somehow, I could not get out of the exam hall. All the doors seemed to be stuck. And in attempt to open a door, I knocked over a dustbin ;_____; hahaha. At it totally echoed through the exam hall. :P

English Paper one was also not a good I expected it to be..but I guess whats over is over :P I shall go study for SS now :]

Its another monday and the official start of the "exam season".For once, I'm not getting the Monday blues :)  Gonna have english oral today. I hope I'll do okay ;)
I'm not just nervous about exams but also about the candyplay logo design comp.. This sounds so wierd but I'd really like the prizes quite badly. XD Hope that the votes will keep coming in.
Revision is going fine. Studied with rosemary on Saturday. And all my math mistakes and problems surfaced..but the paper wasn't as hard as I had expected. Hope it stays that way. Then I will just have to keep practicing and stop myself from being careless. :P

Oh well, gonna send in another entry for the logo competition. I need to get more likes for my first entry T.T

Anyway, one of the worship songs we had during YM yesterday was Hallelujah to my King. The lyrics of this song constantly reminds me of the power of the Lord and that we can put all our trust into him :)

Oh what peace the Spirit of Jesus brings
through the trials He will carry me

My favourite-timetable-day :D

The entire school timetable today was made up of humance and languages. :)) I love humance :D I got back my lit results and I'm happy. Its really really a miracle that I got 20/25 although I really did not understand the first passage! Thank God :) The TFA one was not too bad but still not up to my usual lit text essay standard. I'm quite disappointed with my chinese results though. I really could have done better.

Anyway, I really shouldn't be slacking now. I've started serious revision but I'm still too flustered and worried about math. Honestly, I'm more worried of emath. :( I have not let my teacher check my work for some time now. I'm afraid that she will think I'm still not practicing enough. Because I don't think I am. I really hate tedious calculation so I keep dragging practice. No wonder I fail :(( I need more practice! But doing every single question is really a challenge :P A math, I'm slightly more confident but I really need more practice for trig.

I really don't like how 3/4 of my post these days are about studies :/ So, studies aside, we learnt how to manage a sprain during PE today. Hehe. First time I actually bandaged someone's foot :P I hope I don't have to again tho. That will mean that something happened O.o  

CCA is halted for now. So officially, school is all about studying now :O           

I really really can't wait to go to adelaide now :) We're most likely gonna stay for 2 days in a seaside cottage :D First experience staying in a bungalow :D Its near the sea! I'm really excited to get away from the bustling city to just go to the quiet nature and enjoy the well, quietness :) I'm also going to Rundel mall's Darrel Lea to get some chocolates and sweet stuff for the people back in Singapore.

Another day has passed really quickly. I was really really tired in school today and I was trying SUPER HARD not to fall asleep. I didn't sleep that late last night but I had quite a rough night, waking up and then going back to sleep again :/ Have not been tired to eye-closing level since the last FLL :P

Ah, sad, theres no CCA tomorrow. But on the bright side, that means more time for mugging! I really don't mind studying for all the subjects. Except my worst subject..Emath and Chem and maybe Amath. But I don't mind amath actually. Thats really annoying myself because I should NOT in any way be trying to avoid the subjects I don't do well at. I won't improve that way.

I think I like tomorow's timetable :D Much humance subjects. yea..and PE :)))
Yeap.

" God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. " Psalm 46:1

Today was a good day :) I like the timetable today. I got back my SS test. Thank God. It was better than I expected! I got 11/12 :) for SS :D However, I got back my amath yesterday. I worked rather hard for this test and I was quite sure I would pass but I didn't :((( I disappointed my tuition teacher and myself :((
But I will stop worrying and start continuing to practice for EOYs.

I have been staying in school to study till 5 from yesterday. In the library. It keeps me from being distracted and makes sure I study at least a certain amount of hours a day :P

On the whole, I am feeling slightly better than I did yesterday. But I'm still quite nervous for tuition tomorrow T.T

" can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And I fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer"

I'm exhausted yet theres so much on my mind that I can hardly go to sleep. The childrens' programme went well I guess. But it was so chaotic and I feel practically useless. I like children, but looks like I really cannot handle them. :( I think they don't like me :( But I guess they are young and still do not understand that I take the penknife away from them and stoppingls from going into the gents for a reason. Heh. But this makes me kinda worried..what if Aren doesn't like me anymore? :(( But I still love you Aryee and Aren :')

Then, watching the kids makes me think..
I have one thing I really have to admit. I'm proud to say this even if I'm already 15 and people may think its a kiddish and uncool thing to do. I have a sister that almost always understands, who is the most willing to listen to my stupid and annoying rants(apart from God maybe) and I love my sister :)

Its the last weekday of the school holidays...I think I'm getting the back to school blues..I pretty much done with homework except for that handful of math questions I just can't figure out. And maybe the extra homework for emath...Didn't really feel like doing math today..I hope I will finish it by tomorrow morning.O.o Otherwise, I'm asking for trouble on monday :P

Curiosity really kills the cat. I tried to pull the vena cava out of my 3D heart model while studing bio and it broke T.T  So I tried to glue it back on with super glue :P

I'm kinda excited for helping out at the mid-autumn festival children's programme at church tomorrow :)))
Ok.uh. I'm off to watch the 10.pm show hahahhaha. k bye.

Finally, break time, been doing math for a hour slightly more. Feel slightly calmer now. But still slightly worried over E-math. No matter how I solve the question, its still wrong! Thats why math makes me frustrated sometimes. :P
I managed to cram some bio last evening and revised some geog in the afternoon.
Though I am feeling calmer, I still don't want to go back to school T.T I don't even want to see the results...I guess I actually don't mind the EOYs cause they are probably (hopefully) going to pull up my overall marks. Except for E-math. I am extremely unprepared! Suddenly, I feel that E-math is so much heavier than A-math.

That aside, I seriously can't wait for the Adelaide trip! Kinda sad that we are going during summer rather than winter but I'm happy :D

Flustered!!!

I am officially extremely flustered now. Everyone seems be mugging already and I'm still struggling with math homework!?! I really hate being bad at math :( And I don't think I'm any much better at science these days. I guess bio is ok as long as I study but arghh..there had to be math incorporated into chem now -.- .

I am really so flustered I can't even do clay properly anymore. I am considering whether it was that good an idea for a youtube channel. Its really hard maintaining it sometimes but its still rewarding :) I'm a little worried that the account will be dead for month as I prepare for my exams but thats not supposed to be important..

I think I'm really fried if I don't start focusing. I think math is really that giant boulder that gets in the way of everything. It takes up 3/4 of my time having to do much more practices that everyone else, having to see the teacher in the morning. I guess its good in the long run but I think its affecting my other subjects.

It really seems like an impossible feat for me to pull up my socks now and run the last lap of this year in a sprint and improve by leaps and bounds. But I guess, as long as I study hard, pray hard, miracles can still happen...

Oh no..I really don't want to go back to school this time.T.T
There are results, which I'm happy not knowing. I also left out a piece of homework! Gar..there isn't time for homework anymore, I need to study for my weaker subjects..Worst of all, how am I gonna face Ms Song? Ohno Ohno, I don't want to go to bio remedial. I hope she doesn't come talk to me, and I hope she didn't think that I got complacent because I really didn't. But it was still true that I could have started studying earlier. :(( Must get A1 for bio at the end of the year!

I've been following my timetable ok, better than I expected but it still seems like there is a short of time. I really hate this nervous feeling everytime I remember I still have more homework and then I have to study and theres no more time for fun stuff like clay and photography and guitar now. 

Its the holidays..

Finally, its term break again. Yea. I think term break is a more suitable term than holidays in this case. Exams start in a few weeks after we get back to school. One weeks not very much but at least better than nothing. I made myself a timetable and  I hope to continue following it :P

Nothing much to look foward to for now but I kinda want to visit daiso..hm...Maybe I'll go later after finishing some homework.

Gar..feel so restless today..

Who am I?

Suddenly got inspired my a show to do a self introduction. Sorta..feels kinda random and its gonna sound melodramatic..but fun all the same :)

I'm Shannon, and I turned 15 this August 14th.I'm a Christian -- Methodist, more specifically. I'm in Secondary three in Singapore. I'm pretty much the average Singaporean living in an Average HDB flat. But I'm happy with that. I love animals and nature, especially dogs, cats and hamsters and penguins..hmm. I have an EXTREME obsession with miniatures and scale models, especially of food or kitchenware. I make miniatures and own a teeny business called mad miniatures.  That leads me to my next point. I am an aspiring chef. Thats a big dream for someone in Singapore. I also want to have my own band one day, just as a hobby. But I think I already have too many hobbies. My co-curricular activity is robotics. I used to be in Gymnastics but thats another story. I spent quite a lot of time alone but I don't feel that lonely. I usually settle my own lunch and sometimes dinner. Though I usually don't eat lunch on weekdays...
I used to do very well in school (academic wise but its getting harder these days)
I would admit I think alot about a lot of things and sometimes say really stupid things. But doesn't everybody at some point of time? I'm not a very good speaker. So I often say wrong things, people sometimes find it hard to understand me :P Its really so much easier to type.

One of my greatest personal values is that no one should be left out, stereotyped or discriminated. I can't tell if I'm saying that if I feel that I'm left out sometimes. This brings me back to gymnastics. I got into gymnastics by chance and by impulse in secondary one. It was hard and after one year I decided that the best thing to do is to join another CCA. By God's grace, I got to be part of a warm and awesome CCA -- robotics. Its strange how our extreme differences in personality and background does not set us apart. I'm still learning although I've been in the CCA for more than a year. I would see myself as a junior though I am now one of the seniors in the CCA.
Then again, infocomm leads me back to the value to stereotype. I won't say I completely do not stereotype but I'm working on it. Infocomm has never been seen as a prestigeous CCA or a respectable one in school. Although I think it is. When I first joined, many people not in infocomm said some things that are not exactly very flattering towards infocomm and the people in there. But I'm proud to say I AM AN INFOCOMM ROBOTICS MEMBER AND I THINK WERE AWESOME.

That aside, I'll go back to the part about the band. I play the guitar and the electone. I'm currently learning how to operated the sound system to serve the Lord more. I want to learn to play the keyboards and the drums one day but as I've said, I want to do too many things. I secretly want to perform on stage with a guitar one day but I didn't tell anyone that. until this post. I still kinda doubt my voice but I think I'm at least a safe distance away from being tone deaf :)


Then, back to the part about being a Christian. I just got to know the Lord two years back. The church camp I attended back in P2 wasn't enough to let me really know him. I'm not baptised yet but I'm planning to do so next year.
I can remember that one time in service, the pastor asked us, If we were stripped of our identity (If I deleted 3/4 of this post) Who are we?

Who am I? That the Lord of all the earth, would care to know my name, care to feel my hurt? 

I really don't like starting my posts with "Today,,," but I don't seem to have any better starters. Oh well. Today was farewell for Sarah. I don't really know her but I know shes really nice :) THe only times I saw her was at last years FLL and during the CNY barbeque/tepanyaki. But I hope she does well and have fun in UK :)
Yesterday was a rather depressing day...I got back my bio test...don't even want to talk about it. D:
But still, I guess today soothed things a little.

"You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same"