I realise I haven't posted in awhile. Been really tired and busy with schoolwork. I practically slept the weekend away. Term 2 must have taken its toll on me o.0
Theres school for another three weeks. Oh well, at least theres one week holiday. Prob the best I'd ever get before Olevels end.
Study Camp has been alright, pretty productive, but draining too. And I think they're trying to make us fat with the food. O.O

Thursday was the last day in official training for SC robotics. Theres EEP next week but only a few will be there. Somehow, I didnt feel as sad as I thought I would. More of a sense of nostalgia and an odd sinking and empty-ish feeling. Sounds so melodramatic but yea. xD
I'll miss the collapsing cupboard door, the windmill built by the seniors, the props and box of art materials left behind by generations of seniors.
Robotics definitely taught me more than robotics. I guess I came in scared,afraid that I would face rejection once again but I'm glad I'm really wrong about that. I couldn't ask for better seniors and cca mates. I really did learn to open up gain more confidence and pretty much, discover the person I am. Both positive and negative O.o

Then yesterday(Friday) was sports fest. Scs first sports fest(in place of sports day and swim carnival). It was good that it allowed everyone to take part in interclass games but it could have been better. Many awkward sections. Good change though.

After sports fest, me, xy, mx, jo, vf and ac walked to serene centre. The macs there was sooooooo crowded O.o but we managed to get a seat. v and her sis had to leave first. :( We talked and eat and talked. Got a really bad headache halfway through xD  Must be from the sun earlier. After we were done we took a bus back to school for study camp. Poped by to talk to the juniors. See. Barely a day after stepping down and the seniors already 不放心　xD Sigh. A realise that CCA becomes an important part to a student since it sticks with you for 3-4 years, unlike class which you change almost every year. I was kinda apprehensive for my last day of cca when I heard about others'. Sounded so sad O.O ANYWAY, back to the point, after chatting with the juniors for a bit, we went back to study camp. The vp came in and was really glad to see us studying so she bought us ice cream xD thanks! Thats really nice of her. But after the ice cream I just didnt feel like eating the tea break curry puff anymore so I just made the "study camp chocolate cereal thing" everyone knew so well.
We talked about dreams during tea break. And I realised how scary dreams can be. I had many scary dreams come to think of it. Though I am still quite amused by the fact that I have a reccuring dream of jumping down two stories in a shopping mall and making a perfect landing.

Well, thats pretty much whats interesting this week.

Its a school holiday today. Honestly, surprisingly, I really wish there was study camp today :// I absolutely have no discipline.

This morning, I revisited the long lost joy of making miniatures. Tries making Toniellison's pizza but it didn't turn out quite nice as I wanted it. Probably from the lack of practice and the fact that I'm using ADC. I think polymer still works best for me but my mums not letting me get any until after Os. Wise decision i would say 0.0

I'm halfway through editting the mothers day video. Still lacking 7 messages. But I'm really quite excited for the release :D

Feeling kinda confused and thrown off track now. All that has been happening recently makes me wonder if I am really being too nice.Not being egoistic there. Oh, whoops suddenly lost my train of thought -.- will update when it comes back to me.

Phew, end of another week! that was tiring :/
 made a really big decision that involved a really big committment -- I joined study camp O.O someone says that the people who go who have an L1R5 of below 20 waste study camp space :/ That kinda made me feel bad and slightly awkward but come on, there must be, around 20 other people who have lower L1R5s than me ://  In any case, its been effective so far. I finally wrote my name and drew my signature robot on my mug and spoon today, but still haven't had any food. For some reason, I wasn't really hungry. Probably because of the tiredness.

Anyway, next week will be my/our last week in sc robotics. I prepared letters but am still in the midst of writing them. Somehow, I keep getting stuck halfway through. *awkward balloon/turtle*

I'm really excited for PlaybyhEARt's "debut". :)

Finally! Its friday!
Well, its been a tiring week!
Today, was alright :) I passed 10 rounds race :DD Anddd..Got A1 for Emath :)))
Chem test was alright, but I was being dumb with the QA -.-

But I guess the part of today was PlaybyhEARt's first 'official' rehearsal :) We're preparing something special for a special group of people :) I think I could have enjoyed it even more though, if not for the headache -.- and the fact that I just spilled all my panadol in my jacket pocket and had to throw them away xP kept spilling things in my pocket yesterday. I felt in my other pocket and got a shock -- The unfinished biscuits from morning  break spilled out of its packaging and crumbled in my pocket O.o

Another day passed really quickly :P

Went for the long jump heats today, just kinda glad that I didn't embarrass myself too much, although I didn't qualify. Mrs Bowness said it was kinda pity cause I wasted a good distance by constantly taking off too early :( I estimate about 15cm too early? Man, I did want to qualify, but oh well.
Bio test was kinda hard and confusing. Just hope I don't do too badly.

Got really drenched in the rain today, despite having an umbrella. The meeting was quite fun. I'm glad we have a really friendly and funny mentor :)


Back on sunday, I felt a sudden lurch?? in my stomach, just a wierd, numb-ish feeling when I opened by dairy on sunday. I'd boxed up 23rd to 25th April and wrote "FLL world Festival". If we had won just like we did for the past 6 years, we would have been on the plane to America. Well, whats over is over and I guess we tried our best. I feel a bit bad though, that I might have messed up technical/project pres. :(  I guess whats important now is to help the juniors win again. But I guess its really the experience that counts and its good that both teams walked away with an award. :)



I realize that the best condition to think in is on a rainy day, in a shelter, listening to music. I thought of how much has happened withing the past four months. I realize that whatever happens, we will eventually find a way through and be happy. I guess with regards to this situation, I am 'on the road to recovery'. I guess all I can do now is to pray for the rest. Like I said, I still do care for my best mate.

I read an article somewhere, can't remember where and what exactly it is about. But it said something about making an impact in others' lives. I do hope I did make a positive impact to those around me/whom I've once met or known.

Weekend!!!!

Feeling quite happy today, at least, considerably better than I felt in weeks. It will take time to be completely extremely happy though. But yes, I think I feel better~

Though I think I have done really badly this term, Probably messed up my best subject because I forgot to boil the solution in Bio SPA skill 3. T.T And I don't think I did my filing for Bio very well either. Oh well, enough of that, no point worrying over whats over. I shall work harder (for real) for the coming tests and mocks! Math and Amath are so far so good, better keep it there and improve! 

Anyway, got a pokey thing in my finger during PE today. Did notice it until I realized that it hurt when I grab the ball/bat. I don't think it was a splinter but I just called it a splinter anyway cause I didn't know what else to call it. It was a tiny blue thing but it hurt quite a bit xP Couldn't get it out with my fingernails. So I tried to get Yt to help me take it out. And someone informed Nicci. So I ended up with a horde of people crowding around me and it was kinda embarrassing cause it really wasn't that serious xPPP Gah. Awkward turtle. Nicci    got me to try to use tweezers to get it out myself but I can't manage teensy stuff with my non-dominant hand. So it the end, Kimberly got it out for me. Haha, we all laughed when we saw how small the thing was. So strange that such a tiny thing would hurt. And now as I type, I realise that 'so' is not merely a "口头禅" but it occurs really often in my typing as well xD 

OH well, that aside, I have finally recruited by band members. Although they are not the usual group I hang out with, I feel really glad that I found people with the same passion ~ to pursue our interest and to inspire others and ourselves through music.